I am having really bad mixed feelings about him getting out. Since I was 19yrs old and thrown to the wolves, so to speak, all I have ever known is the military way of life.. I dont remember the 'normal' way of life.. I mean, how do you define normal anyway?? If you define 'normal' as spending approximately 4 years out of 8years apart from your husband normal, then i guess i already have a normal life... If you say that WANTING at least a week away from your spouse every couple few months is normal, then again, i am living a normal life.. if you say that moving every few years is normal, then WOOHOO i am normal.. if you say that having to raise your children by yourself while worrying about the safety of your husband is normal, then damn, i am tired of being normal..

in a few more months i will find out just how boring normal can be.. i am talking about the real normal, where i will have to train myself to speak again, so that civilians can understand me (oops, see i said civilians, i should have said normal people) I will have to get used to noone calling my house at 3am and asking for sgt *******, i will have to get used to having a full time husband.. (imagine that... wonder if we can survive that.... lol 24/7 together minus work time?? we might be fist ta cuffs after a while)

anwyay.. just some ponderings.. i cant seem to focus much today :(  must be the rain..